I am 31.
I have been writing in this place for 10 years now. 10! I just felt like mentioning that because (1) that is nearly 1/3 of my life and (2) I did not observe this during The Blog’s Traditional Birthday Month, May.
Here we are.
I don’t feel old, I don’t feel conflicted.
I feel the most relaxed I have felt in probably…three years? Since Critter was born? I feel the most content I’ve felt in recent memory as well. We are so settled in our home now and it just feels cozy, you know?
Physically, spiritually, mentally, I feel so good right now. I am working out at least three times a week (but usually more like four or five). I am sleeping well. Thanks to my new 5:00 AM wake-up call, I am getting at least 30 minutes of quiet time in the morning five days a week (I still wake-up at 5:00 AM the other two days, but I have to keep everyone moving so that we can all get out the door and to where we need to be).
If I have learned anything in the last few years, it is that it is your decision to do things that serve you or don’t. There are some things in our lives that we cannot control, and some of those are REALLY big things. But when I realized that I am the adult? I get to choose how the day goes! I get to control how I respond to those things! I get to make choices and deal with the consequences those have in my own and our family’s life!
Mostly nothing changed. But it finally gave me some words and a framework to make my decisions in.
I have also learned that if you don’t love the life you are living or the body you have when you are in the best of circumstances, you won’t love them more when things are harder. To that end, it is best to commit to the self-improvement you need to do rather than to waste days/months/years not dealing with it.
All of that said, here is to a great new year ahead.