#reverb14 is a prompt-a-day series for the month of December that is meant to give us all the chance to reflect on 2014 and the opportunity to write down our hopes and dreams for the coming year. Through December 31st Meredith,Sarah and I will be posting each day with a new prompt. Join us by writing, or join us by reading. No matter what you choose, come with us.
Letting go: For next year, I’m letting go of…
This was a hard prompt for me to wrap my arms around and that is because every time I read it, I think, I’ve given up enough already. And that is really the heart of the matter. I feel like this year was a study in letting go.
I am a collector of things. Of friends. Of memories. Of habits. Of places. So much of it is so very good but parts of it invariably end up being clutter. Some of which we’re able to recognize and some of which, we really just don’t know what to do with.
I wish I could say that this year when I let go, it was voluntary. That it made sense in the scheme of things and that I understood by pulling back, I was able to grow more. That’s the noble, pinteresting thing to do, right? But a lot of the time, it was like gently prying a grabbing toddler’s fingers out of your hair and unwrapping them from your necklace chain before they can give it another yank. Enough is enough.
This year, I let go of: being stressed about our schedule, trying to fit everything and everyone in, worrying about eating the right thing, worrying about eating the wrong thing, worrying about what I was wearing (ever), attempting to figure out if we were doing the right/wrong thing relative to our contemporaries, caring about our heinously ugly white laminate cabinets and ridiculously awful bathroom complete with powder blue tile and vanity.
I am exhausted already and this is probably not even half of the list. Which I think is what makes it so easy for me to take each thing on its own and consider it as a part of my life or not. There are things that make me better, that make Marcus and I better, and make us better people for our family and friends. All of the rest? Let go. Simple as that.