This Is Not Your Practice Life

Not Your Practice Life

We Are Surrounded By Noise.

I want to say that it was the fall Harvest Party where I found myself in a conversation with my Auntie Kim about introverts and extroverts.  Which family members fell into which camp, where we felt we stood.

At the most basic level, I am an extrovert.  I enjoy talking to strangers.  I am energized when I spend time with the people who I love.  Filling my planner with appointments and dates is cathartic to me.

In December, I got outright trampled by my schedule.  The best-worst part is that I saw it coming even before the first of the month rolled around.  By the middle of the month, I was bargaining with my body, begging it to stave off sickness until Christmas, because I’d have just that much extra time to sleep it off and recover.

I am not the best version of myself when I am exhausted.  I am not the best version of myself when I am stretched thin.

So for the month of January, I’ve committed one day/weekend to myself.  I have completely cleared my own schedule.  So I don’t have to leave the house if I don’t want to.  So the only person I plan to see is my husband.  So I can go on a marathon BRAVO-jag or I can sit down on the couch and read a book.

I know y’all are thinking Duh, Kat.  That is the whole point of weekends.

But if I don’t intentionally set aside that time for rest, it gets committed to other people and other things.

I graduated from college nearly five years ago.  And from that point forward, rest is not something that I ever made a priority.  Rather, I’ve positioned it as an antidote and action of last resort.  Just like the half-gallon of orange juice I down when I feel a massive cold coming on and the active release massage I perform on my calf when I feel the need to ward of tendinitis.

It doesn’t have to be like that.  It’s not supposed to be like that.

I isn’t rest that I need to learn how to be comfortable with.  It’s knowing that not every minute needs to have a purpose.  That the unintentional time is what will make me better and stronger in the intentional minutes.

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