Reverb 12 | Prompt 16 | Choice

#reverb12 is a prompt-a-day series for the month of December that is meant to give us all the chance to reflect on 2012 and the opportunity to write down our hopes and dreams for the coming year. Through December 31st Meredith, Sarah and I will be posting each day with a new prompt. Join us by writing, or join us by reading. No matter what you choose, come with us.

Choice:  Being an adult means making your own choices.  What choices were the hardest to make this year?

Passive

Passive.

Is  generally speaking, a word that I cringe at.

But this year, in a lot of ways, I was passive.  I was reactive instead of proactive.  I waited for situations to arrive at my doorstep instead of chasing them down.

I asked other people what they would do.  How they would do it.

I used fear passivity.  Because I felt that it implied some sort of ennui.  An apathy.  A malaise.

And who wouldn’t, when every morning brings another chance to grab the bull by the horns, get the worm, race the sun?

The reality is that the sun will rise again.  There are a lot of worms.  No one who values their life (and limbs) actually wants to touch any bull’s horns much less grab them.

So what I chose to do this year was to work with what I had.  To navigate between Point A and Point B with the faith that this was a means to a legitimate end.

It was to be stretched and tested in a new way.

This other side, as it turns out is not an absence or a void, but simply another mechanism for making it.  For getting there.

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2 responses to “Reverb 12 | Prompt 16 | Choice

  1. Choice that was hard……to agree to have my husband get fixed. We are having no more children. What happened over the summer was so hard, I almost lost my life, with my sons. I had four blood transfusions, I was hemroging (spelling, sorry) and that’s that. I feel done physically, I’m too scared to do that again. But, emotionally I don’t feel done. I could have 200 more kids. I love them. So, it was a hard choice to make. But, it’s for the best.

    Shauna xoxoxoxoxxo

  2. Pingback: Reverb 12 | Prompt 21 | Look | Tenaciously Yours,

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