Some of my absolute favorite ladies Sarah and her partner-in-crime, Meredith are leading a December blog series called Reverb. I can’t explain it nearly so well as she does except to say that it involves reflecting on the life you’ve lead over the past year. The highs, the lows, the changes and your hopes for the year to come. I told her I would love to join in for a post or two when the prompt felt right.
Prompt for December 19: Challenges. What did you wrestle with in 2011? What did you learn? What challenges do you foresee in 2012?
2011. The year of boundaries.
I spent more time than I ever could have anticipated, learning to acknowledge what it is that I Need To Function on a daily basis.
What you need to function.
Just let it marinate for a second.
It sounds deceptively easy. Like knowing how to take care of a plant. Like you can fit it into a specific formula.
Oh, you know, you just give them water, some indirect sunlight, a bit of fresh air and they flourish.
Though in the case of our now-defunct houseplants, they didn’t even really need the water.
I realized that saying yes is easy, it’s saying no that’s hard. You’re not always saying no to a person, you’re saying no to a situation. You’re saying no to an opportunity.
There are a lot of really great opportunities. Incredible opportunities. But that doesn’t always mean they are the right opportunities. It’s not always so easy to distinguish between the three.
Sometimes saying no means saying yes to your time. To working through things on your own terms. To cultivating the space where you can be at your best.
But saying yes to your time? Can feel really selfish.
I spent the entirety of our Honeymoon, hoping and praying that I would have some sort of epiphany as to what I’m really meant to be doing with this life I have been given.
Yes, that snap was meant to portray some level of introspection.
Beyond loving the ones I’m with, the light bulb moment never really materialized.
Even after a few glasses of Prosecco.
Instead I came to terms with the fact that sometimes you have to love the
one thing you’re stuck with. Which isn’t to say that if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em. But that there are times where you have to be the active player in your own life.
I mean, not everything was so Big Picture. I was challenged to confront mundane realities.
Like flying on an airplane by myself for the first time.
Yes, I realize how ridiculous it is that it took me 23 years to get to that point. But there was a point when I was younger, where I very truly thought I would never set foot on an airplane again. The anxiety was just too much to handle.
I started to learn what it actually looks like to maintain a 60 pound weight-loss on a daily basis.
It’s not glamorous. You already know what works. So there are no fireworks that go off when you experiment with a new way of eating. No pats on the back for discovering a new way of moving your body.
Truth: Most of the time it’s extremely boring. With a little bit of vigilance tossed in on the side for good measure.
Boring, as it turns out is not such a terrible starting point.
What were your challenges this year?
What do you see as being challenges in 2012?