Reverb 13 | Prompt 11 | FAIL

#reverb13 is a prompt-a-day series for the month of December that is meant to give us all the chance to reflect on 2013 and the opportunity to write down our hopes and dreams for the coming year. Through December 31st Meredith, Sarah and I will be posting each day with a new prompt. Join us by writing, or join us by reading. No matter what you choose, come with us.

FAIL: What didn’t work out this year?

I am, probably selfishly, used to having it all.  Life is full.

Up at 4:30 AM, in bed when I am ready to tip over from exhaustion, my feet have not touched the ground this year.  That much is quite obvious to everyone, I think.

And so in August, I started acquainting myself with the art of compromise and trade-offs.  This for that.  Quid pro quo.  Balance.  Accepting the reality of a finite amount of time in my day.

How it took me that long to reach that point, I am not entirely sure.  What I have learned is that routine, and sometimes the simple act of putting one foot in front of the other is what keeps the wheel spinning.

In the last week: buying Lean In, reading Lean In and participating on a panel for the League of Women Voters on…Lean In.  Hosting parties.  Cooking dinner.  Baking for the office cookie exchange.  Running.  Blogging.  Actually working.

Sometimes compromising feels more like cutting, in a life full of loves and not likes.  I don’t always know that I’m doing it right.  Really, I don’t know that I’m ever doing it right.

Next year, maybe, I’ll get to that place.

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2 responses to “Reverb 13 | Prompt 11 | FAIL

  1. You can only burn so many calories in a day.

    Consumption of calories however is far less constrained.

    Happy Holidays.

  2. I don’t think anyone feels like they’re ever doing it right. I feel that balance is an illusion, just like perfection is. There will always be choices – some hard, some not – about what to pursue and what to let go. No one can actually have it all, unless they have very low expectations, I suppose. And I do not, and you do not.

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